Confidence. It's a funny, touchy subject. Kind of like weighing/balancing scale. You want to have the right amount of confidence. Too much and you will be an argent and prideful person who no one wants to be around. On the other hand you want enough confidence so that you can do stuff and are not terrified to try something new or hard.
The other day my supervisor paid me a compliment on my performance that day on a job that I am still new to. Therefore I have not yet fully developed the skills needed for it. Needless to say, I was feeling pretty good about myself, and her compliment also build up my confidence a bit more in that area. I have been in that newer area for a few days, and no one had given me constructive criticism, so I figured I was not terrible at the new role. So my supervisor's compliment gave my slowly growing confidence an ego boost. I looked at a coworker who shares a workstation with me and said, "It's funny how I can have confidence in my professional life. I know I am a good hard worker and good employee, and yet I have little to no confidence in other areas of my life." I then spent the next few days thinking about this "confidence issue."
I realized that I have confidence in my professional life. Like I said a minute ago, I know I am a good worker. It is simply a fact. I show up, I do my job well, and I get along with my coworkers. But then comes my personal life. A whole other ball game. I think it boils down to emotions, and as much as I do not want to give him credit or any room in my life, the enemy likes to attack me in the area of my emotions. Thankfully as my loving hubby reminded me today that emotions lie to us and try to deceive us. This does not mean we should just ignore our feelings and emotions. It simply means that they are not the be-all and end-all.
You see, there is little to no emotion in my professional life. I go to work and complete a task and then go home. Yes, some days are frustrating and annoying, and there are also days when management makes decisions that make my head spin, but those feelings do not take away from my confidence in my ability to complete my job. I do not feel prideful or arrogant about it either. It is simply a fact. If you add up all the elements that make a good employee/worker the equation equals me and many other people around the world as well.
So why is it that I can have confidence in my professional life and yet feel like I am being prideful if I say I am confident in my personal life? I am also going to be bold and assume that I am not the only one out there with confidence in one area of your life and lack in another. I would be interested to know if someone out there has confidence in their personal life but lacks it in their professional life and why.
If I were to simply take away emotion in my personal life and look at my life from a black-and-white factual approach. Quite frankly, this is how I prefer to approach all of my life. I am not a fan of emotions because they are messy, and I do not like a mess. Thankfully my counselor helped me in learning how to process emotions better and process them properly. Now, remember to put those lessons into practice.
Anyways, I am a clean and tidy person, a good housewife. The majority of the time our apartment is clean and in order. No, it is not spotless at all times because it is a home and now an exhibit in a museum.
I am a good cook. Not an amazing one, but a strong work in progress. No one has ever gotten sick from my cooking. Okay, that's a lie. I do sometimes. That is because my IBS is a pain in the butt and sometimes get mad about what I make for dinner. It thinks it gets a vote on what hubby and I want for dinner. 🙄 (Sarcasm intended. My IBS does get a vote in our regular menu planning. I am not a big fan of suffering through my food).
I am a good photographer. I can look back on the pictures I have taken over the years and see the quality difference in my work.
So, friend, I think the takeaway in all this for myself and whoever blesses me by reading my posts is to check our emotions and see if the enemy is trying to use them against us and lie to us. Like my hubby said, emotions are not bad in and of themselves. The Bible tells us that Jesus had emotions. He had moments of anger, joy, sorrow, stress, etc. The difference is that He did not let them control Him, and neither should we.
Above all else though, the most important personal/ability/thing that we need to have confidence in is Christ Jesus. Our Lord and Savior. No, I am not saying that He is a thing or an ability. He is a person. But for the sake of argument, I am comparing Him to our ability to complete a task. My point is that we need to have more confidence in Christ than we do in our ability to complete a task, whether that be in the workplace or in our homes. I know that I struggle with listening to the world's opinion/the enemy's opinion of me instead is focusing on God's opinion of me. Another thing I need to work on.
I pray friends that this post blesses you and encourages you as you walk with Christ. I love writing and my blog and am blessed to know others enjoy it as well.
God Bless
~Hannah
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