Stand Tall When Satan Attacks.

    For a long time, I have struggled to connect emotionally with my husband. As you can imagine, it has caused us plenty of grief over the years.

    Today at work, I was thinking about our situation and trying to figure out the answer. At work, I can be myself with my workers and enjoy the day. But as soon as I arrive home, I turn into a robot and am unable to enjoy any sort of relationship/emotional connection with my hubby. A situation that is understandably upsetting to my hubby. He wants an amazing marriage, as do I, but I struggle to do my part.

    At break today, I was journaling on my phone, trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I can be vulnerable with my coworkers, but not with my hubby, who has never given me any reason not to be vulnerable with him. I returned to the sanding booth after the break and continued thinking about it.

    I started praying. The Holy Spirit quickly responded and said, "Satan is attacking you." Instantly, I threw my hands in the air and said, "Of course!" I quickly prayed and rebuked the enemy and told him where he could go.

    It all makes sense. Satan doesn't want my marriage or any other marriage out there to succeed, so he attacks them. But he doesn't care about our relationships with our coworkers, or at least nowhere near as much as he cares about our relationships with our spouses and other family members.

    John 10:10 NIV, "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."

    A believing coworker walked into the sanding booth a few minutes later, and I got to share my answered prayer with her and enjoy fellowship for a few minutes.

    I continued with my work day relieved, thankful and praising God for this revelation and excited to tell my hubby after work. He picked me up, and I told him about my day and what I had been praying about. I hold him that I learned that Satan had been attacking me, but now I'm aware of it, and my defenses are up.

    The part that I find "funny" about all this is just how simple it was. It never dawned on me that the enemy was attacking. I just thought I suck at being vulnerable and emotional at home, which is true, and it is something I need to work on. But it never occurred to me that I may be getting attacked.

    It has been five days since the Holy Spirit told me that Satan was attacking me and damaging my relationship with my hubby. Since then our home has been filled with peace and harmony. The last three days hubby has had a cold, and I was even able to care for him. Caring for him when he is sick is one of my least favourite things to do in life. It's not a skill set that I have ever been good at. The fact that I just spent two days nursing him (the third day I had to return to work) with a good attitude speaks volumes. Not of myself though, of God. God is in the business of healing and restoring broken things and that is exactly what He has been doing.

    I share this friend in the hopes that it will encourage you. I don't write and share to show off my spirituality or anything else. If anything, my blog is a written account of all my shortcomings. I write because I love to and to remind both of us that we are all broken and in need of a Savior, who is Jesus Christ.

    I also share this because it never occurred to me that Satan was attacking me or my home. I do believe that he tries to attack and trip us up regularly. The answer was obvious and right in front of me the whole time, and yet I didn't see it. Of which I still can't believe. I guess that is where God's grace comes into play.

The moral of the story is always be on guard.

I pray that there is as much peace in your home tonight as there is in mine.

Merry Christmas friend.

God Bless

~Hannah

We are to stand tall against the devil's schemes.