Distracted.

    "Father, forgive me for being distracted. More and more lately I find my mind wandering during the worship set at church. My mind has been wandering off and thinking about clothing and outfit ideas or admiring the outfits of the worship team. Last week my mind was wondering and thinking about my new sewing business idea and the different colour sets that I want to make my products into. All good, wonderful things Lord. But distracting nonetheless. I am singing along and yet my mind wanders off. Once the sermon starts and I start taking notes, my brain focuses and I start soaking in the message. Only when we are standing and worshiping through song does my mind wonder."

    After praying this prayer I started thinking through my situation and trying to analyze it. I thought about how last week I prayed about listening to my hubby talk about his hobbies and how I need to do the opposite of what I am currently doing and listen attentively and care. Someone reminded me to listen because I care about my hubby. Not because I care about the topic. That helped a lot. I spent the next week listening to him a whole lot better. Then I fell off the wagon a bit but I'm back on it now. Basically, I was thinking about how I started practicing doing the opposite of what I had been doing with hubby and how it was working, so I was wondering if I could do the same with the worship music at church. I love worship music, and I have always thought of it as one of the ways that I connect with God.

A few minutes later...

    Holy Spirit: "Eve was tempted by the serpent with things that were desirable and in and of themselves were not bad."

    Because the enemy is sneaky and likes to sneak into our brains and trip us up on small stuff so we won't notice and then all of a sudden, he is tripping us up on big things.

    This Sunday I directed my thoughts a little better and sang the songs over myself. One of the songs we sang says, "I sought the Lord and He heard and He answered." and then repeats several times. Every time we sang that line I reminded myself of a time when I prayed and He answered. Like the prayer, I prayed about my hubby before he asked me to be his girl. I had casually dated a few guys before meeting hubby. When I got to Bible College and was tired of casually dating, I noticed hubby. The cute guy at the end of my table during the welcome dinner. I wasn't planning to date at that college. I figured I would date once I transferred to the next school the following year. A story for another day. Anyway, when I started crushing on hubby, I asked God to take away my feelings if he wasn't the one. Long story short, next to my salvation, he is my favourite answered prayer and biggest blessing.

    I also reminded myself of other answered prayers. Like when God told me what to name our dog, Blessing and many other prayers. As I practiced reminding myself of these answered prayers, the song and the worship became that much more rich for me. Best of all, I was no longer distracted. I was now meditating on the goodness and faithfulness of my Lord and Savior.

    Do you struggle with paying attention during worship or any other time during your church service on Sunday, friend? If so, I pray this encourages you in your walk with Christ.

God Bless

~Hannah

To Everything There Is A Season.

    Last night (Monday night), I worked my last shift at the restaurant. Hubby and I decided that it was time for me to quit that job. And then he had to convince me to do it. I'm a little stubborn. ;) We decided we didn't need it anymore, but I'm stubborn and kept working anyway. So I put my notice in and worked my last three shifts.

    Monday afternoon, I was feeling pretty neutral about my last shift. Once I arrived at the restaurant, I started getting excited. It was a good night at the restaurant, but I'm so glad to be done.

    I texted my mom and sister as I walked out at the end of the night. I talked about one chapter closing and another exciting one opening. God is blessing my photography business and put on my heart the desire to start sewing and selling scrunchies, barrette scrunchies and other things. Both of which I am excited for.

    I drove home happy and satisfied.

    As I unlocked the door to get into our apartment building, I thought about the fact that I was now down to one paycheck. The thought brought relief, gratitude and excitement. A weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and I wanted to cry. I'm excited to have my Monday night back and the energy that goes with that. I am excited to have my evenings back and do with them as I please. (Yes, it was only one night a week, but the next evening, I would spend it on the couch tired). I am grateful for this past season and what it did for my family, and I am excited for this next season and what God has in store for my family.

    I am also proud of myself for holding a second job for a year and a half (banquet hall for six months and then dishwasher job for a year). And I am proud of myself for putting in my notice and walking away.

    Ecclesiastes 3:1 KJV "To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:"

God Bless

~Hannah

Renewing My Mind

    At the end of the sermon last Sunday (two weeks ago now), the visiting pastor commented on unrepentant sins/hindrances and such. Then he listed off a handful of them, such as additions. None of those are my struggles, but the area that the enemy does attack me in is my self-worth. I've spent years struggling with my personal self-worth. Professionally, my self-worth is just fine. I am confident as an employee. I know what I can and cannot do and what I am good at and what areas I could improve on. My personal life is a whole different ball game. One of which I have never really understood. Why am I confident in my professional life but not in my personal life?

    The next few minutes are a blur in regards to who said what, between the pastor, hubby and myself. Basically, I realized that I had sinned against God by believing the lies of the enemy.

    The next morning at work while priming parts in my priming booth, I was praying and asking God to forgive me for my sins. To forgive me for believing the lies of the enemy.

    The Holy Spirit reminded me to renew my mind with scripture whenever the enemy tries to tell me that I am not worth it. I then found a Bible reading plan for this exact issue and started to listen to it while I primed parts. 

    I spent a chunk of time praying and asking for forgiveness. Then The Holy Spirit led me to my next podcast to listen to that morning. The topic, “The power of forgiveness (and why it's so hard)” the Holy Spirit then revealed to me that I needed to forgive myself as well. So I did.

    I forgive myself for believing the lies of the enemy telling me that I am not worth it that I am beautiful or that I do not matter.

    I share all this because a) that's what I love to do with my blog and b) because I'm sure I'm not the only one who struggles with self-worth.

 I did not add in the written devotional blurbs that the Bible study came with because I was more interested in the Scripture references of God encouraging me in my worth. But this is the study if you are interested. In you You Version App. "Beautiful in God's Eyes: Who YOU Are in Him." From Compassion International.

Romans 12:2 NIV

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to rest and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Psalm 139:13-18 NIV

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I raise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand – when I awake, I am still with you.

1 Peter 1:18-19 NIV

For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your ancestors, but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect.

According to my study Bible, the word redeemed means to rescue. Jesus saw the value given to me by the Father that He saved me from my sins and the old way of living.

1 Peter 2:9

But you were a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.

1 Corinthians 6:20

You were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.

John 3:16

For God so loved the world that he gave his only and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

1 Thessalonians 5:23

May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.

John 16:33

I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world, you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.

John 10:10

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

Romans 8:28

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Genesis 16:13

She gave this name to the Lord who spoke to her. “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One who sees me.”

Deuteronomy 31:6

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.

    God sees you, friend. He loves you. He chooses you. He died for you and because of Him, you are worthy. Stop sinning against God by believing the lies of the enemy. I say it like that because I didn't realize I was sinning against God by believing the lies of the enemy. It wasn't until the visiting pastor said it that it dawned on me that believing the enemy is a sin. Stand firm on the Word of God. Hide it in your heart for when the enemy attacks and tries to tell you whatever lie he thinks you will believe.

    I pray this post blesses, encourages and teaches you, friend.  I pray that you will be reminded of your God-given worth. Worth that He freely gave to you. Worth that you did not have to work for.

God Bless

~Hannah

Like Blessing in this photo, we need to focus on God's word. (I think she is focusing on hubby standing next to me while I took the photo)

Excited For June

     As I lay here in bed before going to sleep I am exhausted and sore from yesterday and the last few days. But I'm also excited about all the fun plans we have this month.

    First off, yesterday some of my coworkers and I competed in the Sydenham Dragon Boat races. We were the second fastest boat on the water and in the end, received silver in the "A" division. Pretty good for a handful of coworkers and other acquaintances. As expected I am very tired and sore from the day and unfortunately spent most of the day in bed. I got home yesterday afternoon after the races and haven't moved since. Hubby and I tried to get ready for church this morning and then looked at each other and decided neither of us had the energy to deal with people. Plus I didn't know if I could stay awake at church or how to comfortably sit in service with all those achy muscles from the races. So we stayed home.

    Next Saturday, our church is hosting a lady's event called, "Elevate." I'm so excited. I wasn't able to attend last year due to my work schedule, but this year I can. In fact when hubby and I were discussing the event after church when it was first announced. Hubby's response to me was, "Let someone else make you breakfast babe." Pretty sure I shed a tear or two when he said that. Making him breakfast is one of his favourite things that I do for him. I am excited to see what God does at this event.

    Next up, I am doing a portrait photoshoot with one of my best friends and her boyfriend. It's not very often I get to do a portrait photoshoot, so I'm very excited. Photography is one of my passions, at the moment most of my subjects are items in nature like flowers and trees and then Blessing. I want to expand my skills into other genres such as portraits. So I'm very excited. It's also a paid photoshoot, which is even more of a bonus.

    I'm also handing in my notice at my second job. It's been a year and a half of working two jobs and it's time to call it quits. I'm exhausted. Hubby has been suggesting for a while now that it was time to quit. But I'm really stubborn and didn't listen. Until now. We haven't met our financial goals yet, but we are closer than we were. And we are proud of our progress. But we are both tired of me working a second job. I only had one shift at the restaurant, but the day after that shift I was always exhausted, so in reality our family lost out on two nights when we might have time together. The second job was always meant to be temporary to give us a boost and it accomplished that goal so now it's time to get back to more normal hours and enjoy our family more.

    As I handed in my notice to my manager, she asked if it was a happy or sad letter. I said, "Happy for me and sad for you." Followed by a shared laugh.

 Once I recover from working the second job I want to try and expand my photography business and book more clients. Self-promoting and marketing are not my strong suits, so we shall see what happens.

    And Lastly, our wedding anniversary trip. At the end of the month, we are celebrating 9 years of marriage. We are thrilled to have made it this far and are excited to watch God continue to work on us. Between my second job and hubby updating his high school grade 11 English and soon starting into the grade 12 English course, we are feeling a little tired and are very excited for a little five-day holiday.

    Note. Hubby graduated high school many years ago when I did. The university God has called him to attend next wants grade 12 university-level English, and hubby took college level while in high school. So he is working very hard, kicking butt and upgrading those courses so that he can go to university. I am so proud of all the work he has been putting into his school work, working towards his career goals, and building the life together that we have always wanted.

    And there you have it friend, all the reasons why I am excited for June. I hope you have lots of exciting things coming up in the next month and beyond too.

God Bless

~Hannah

The Hamilton Museum of Steam and Technology. Used for filming the outside of the city morgue and station house number 4 in Murdock Mysteries. A beloved tv series of mine.