For quite a while now I have been struggling to pray for myself. I don't recall exactly when it started, but I know that it ends today. It's not that I never pray for myself, but very little.
The majority of my prayer life is for my hubby and thanking Him for our blessings. But I spend very little time praying for myself. Part of me feels selfish for praying, but that might just be the enemy talking. Another part of me feels like the majority of my life is simple and routine and therefore I can do it on my own. Which is partly true, but also prideful. Because I do need God every day. I need His grace and mercy each morning and all through the day. And yes, I know that prayer is more than just asking God for stuff. It's a conversation and it helps in building an intimate relationship with Him.
Sometimes I struggle to pray because I'm afraid that the things I'm struggling with are so trivial that I feel silly praying. But I'm realizing now that God wants to hear about them and wants to help me deal with them. He also created me and therefore knows what I will struggle with and is expecting me to talk to him about certain topics.
Long story short. Which isn't a story, but more a thought. Praying for yourself isn't selfish and not praying for yourself, could be considered prideful. Depending on your reasons for doing it or not doing it. It's a connection with your Heavenly Father and thinking that you don't need prayer is prideful because you are telling God that you can manage on your own, which is also a lie. No one can do life on their own. God designed us to need Him and each other. So pray for yourselves, friends.
I pray that this blesses and encourages you in your walk today friend.
Happy Sunday
God Bless
~Hannah
